What do you hate most about your friend(s)?

Hairan sgt dgn lelaki und senang sgt percaya that a certain guy likes her..simply put, pmpuan yg senang nk dapat laa..

AsK mE anYthINg..really~except for THE thing.. (*_*)

If you could master one skill what would it be?

The art of language. i'd write so many novels, plays, poems, lyrics,speeches,children stories, tagline for companies,journals,criticisms in many2 languages.
I WANT TO MASTER THE ART OF LANGUAGE!

AsK mE anYthINg..really~except for THE thing.. (*_*)

Becoming Ann Cassandra ~!

ok..so the REAL reason i hadn't been writing is cause i THINK too much on what people want to read...so i cant commit to be an article writer..might as well make this a place to mumble and babble around..nobody reads this,anyway..just my imaginary AudIEncEs . . .

i'm here in college now..

at 4 pm, in ten minutes i'm gonna have to finish on9-ing, and go to Wispi 5 and study MATHS~!

tomorrow is the exam...

btw, i'll provide the URL to my other accounts..

moshimonsters.com/f3nt0 this website, altho seems childish is actually very challenging especially the daily puzzles and the amusement park!!! u really gotta play this game!!

other Great places to play games are bored.com and candystand.com

http://re-ann-cassandra.tumblr.com/ is a Tokio Hotel appreciation tumblr. AWESOME!
and www.allyoucrashqueensandmotorbabies.tumblr.com is also a pretty nice MCR appreciation blog!
not to forget: the best of all: www.thoselittlethingsaboutlife.tumblr.com this is a site u'd LOVE LOVE LOVE to click on to! ^_^

this my my previous blog..goingforaphenomenon.blogspot.com
and http://whenlovegetscomplicated.blogspot.com/ where i used to post when i was in relationship which i am not into anymore

http://twitter.com/#!/f3nt0 my twitter..mostly tokio hotel stuff...

i also have a profile account in Tokio Hotel Malaysia official fan club..and am the coordinator in Tokio Hotel Malaysia Street Team for Negeri Sembilan n Sabah...also an admin in http://www.facebook.com/HumanoidsUnite
http://www.formspring.me/HumanoidsUnite

hahahha...what am i doing..exposing my alter ego to public.. but hey.i like this alter ego.and this virtual persona...

so, i'm Ann Cassandra...simply becoming me!! Tokio Hotel, with Allah's consent helped me find my way n dream! *_* <3 <3 <3 <3

ps: nw it's 4.o5 pm so much for ann cassandra's punctuality::

Where do you wanna be some day?.

Where do u wanna be some day? what do u wanna accomplish??

Well, here's a list of things i want to accomplish while i can.

1. send the package to Laura and she's happy to get it  DONE.
2. have a best friend who's like Mah, very outgoing but knows her boundaries..not interested in puppy love..and someone i can tolerate


3.print Bremen and give it to Tokio Hotel,hoping that Tom would enjoy it,altho the one i really love is Bill
4.Learn German and love it..now i dont feel the passion..the thought is in my head,not heart
5.Find THE one thing that i like doing, that i will give up everything for..to just be an Expert in that.
6.To have Tokio Hotel and Bunkface as friends..as in,real friends they ajak hang out with
7.To have all my excessive FAT go, and wear dresses, and fit in easily in ANY clothing i see in malls
8. i want to have the BRAIN BRAIN BRAIN..
a.to draw and design my artsy t-shirt..
b.to design my virtual life,
c.to program a game
d. to have the creativity and wit of speech and writing


9. please let me have the ability to jog EVERY Evening, and play Basketball and Bowling well
10. i want The House Of The Dead 4 to be a sport
11. i want to join the DURCH DEN THM + THP survivor contest
12. take and edit photos, also add good quotations so they're cute and can sell
13. sew my own cosplay outfit and get paid doing for others
14. try working in a hair saloon,see whether i really like it
15. i want to produce my own indie fashion line called :ann cassandra
a.have artsy clothing design n for the logo 2
b.understand marketing strategy


16.not be affected by petty things like deciding based on the aura i feel, and get bored easily n easily feel threatened
17. have high self-esteem so i can immediately think(with THE brain)and give feedback i wont regret giving immediately
18. find out how my complexity can benefit myself n TRUST IN ME!!!
19. HAFAL Al-insan
20. i MUST HAVE A VEEEEEERY VERYY SUCCESSFUL LIFE by my 20th birthday like TH who rented the whole amusement park on sept 1st..
21. let my blue side (take action) and develop more than my yellow side (unending overflowing idea n thinking)
22. get free 1500 million for free to spend on makeover n wardrobe.
23.get permanent rid of body hair
24.healthy
225. STRONG! BE VERY VERY STRONG IN STANDING UP FOR MY BELIEF and FOCUS on the BRAIN so i will be the next TH b4 it's too late..and b like Saidina Ali.

things to do while doing other things...

ok..so i stumbled upon skyrock.com the beauty and the cuteness of the icons in the site makes ma wanna blog again..
but this is about me..dont have to read it..

ok.now i'm signing up for tumblr..and i just found this one great site that allows u t skype without installing skype..u can even do video call~!!! sugoi, ne??
=)
it's called imo.im

ok..so now is 2 am...
i'm tumblr-ing...
but tomorrow i go back to college..
so.. 2am-4am : on9
4am-5am : packing
5am-6am : sleep or finish socio..
6am-7.45am: movie
7.45am-12pm: ZZZzzzz..
1300: go to skewl::
SUGOI~!!

How to make someone happy

01.Call an old friend, just to say hi. 02. Hold a door open for a stranger. 03. Invite someone to lunch. 04. Compliment someone on his or her appearance. 05. Ask a coworker for their opinion on a project. 06. Bring cookies to work. 07. Let someone cut in during rush hour traffic. 08. Leave a waitress or waiter a big tip. 09. Tell a cashier to have a nice day. 10. Call your cousins. 11. Let someone know you miss them. 12. Treat someone to a movie. 13. Let a person know you really appreciate them. 14. Visit a retirement center. 15. Take a child to the zoo. 16. Fill up your spouse’s car with gas. 17. Surprise someone with a small gift. 18. Leave a thank-you note for the cleaning staff at work. 19. Write a letter to a distant relative. 20. Tell someone you thought about them the other day. 21. Put a dime in a stranger’s parking meter before the time expires. 22. Bake a cake for a neighbor. 23. Send someone flowers to where they work. 24. Invite a friend to tea. 25. Recommend a good book to someone. 26. Donate clothing to a charity. 27. Offer an elderly person a ride to where they need to go. 28. Bag your own groceries at the checkout counter. 29. Donate blood. 30. Offer free baby-sitting to a friend who’s really busy or just needs a break. 31. Help your neighbor rake leaves or shovel snow. 32. Offer your seat to someone when there aren’t any left. 33. Help someone with a heavy load. 34. Ask to see a store’s manager and comment on the great service. 35. Give your place in line at the grocery store to someone who has only a few items. 36. Hug someone in your family for no reason. 37. Wave to a child in the car next to you. 38. Send a thank-you note to your doctor. 39. Repeat something nice you heard about someone else. 40. Leave a joke on someone’s answering machine. 41. Be a mentor or coach to someone. 42. Forgive a loan. 43. Fill up the copier machine with paper after you’re done using it. 44. Tell someone you believe in them. 45. Share your umbrella on a rainy day. 46. Welcome new neighbors with flowers or a plant. 47. Offer to watch a friend’s home while they’re away. 48. Ask someone if they need you to pick up anything while you’re out shopping. 49. Ask a child to play a board game, and let them win. 50. Ask an elderly person to tell you about the good old days. 51. During bad weather, plan an indoor picnic with the family. 52. Buy someone a goldfish and bowl. 53. Compliment someone on their cooking and politely ask for a second helping. 54. Dance with someone who hasn’t been asked. 55. Tell someone you mentioned them in your prayers. 56. Give children’s clothes to another family when your kids outgrow them. 57. Deliver extra vegetables from your garden to the whole neighborhood. 58. Call your spouse just to say, I love you. 59. Call someone’s attention to a rainbow or beautiful sunset. 60. Invite someone to go bowling. 61. Figure out someone’s half-birthday by adding 182 days, and surprise them with a cake. 62. Ask someone about their children. 63. Tell someone which quality you like most about them. 64. Brush the snow off of the car next to yours. 65. Return your shopping cart to the front of the store. 66. Encourage someone’s dream, no matter how big or small it is. 67. Pay for a stranger’s cup of coffee without them knowing it. 68. Leave a love letter where your partner will find it. 69. Ask an older person for their advice. 70. Offer to take care of someone’s pet while they’re away. 71. Tell a child you’re proud of them. 72. Visit a sick person, or send them a care package. 73. Join a Big Brother or Sister program. 74. Leave a piece of candy on a coworker’s desk. 75. Bring your child to work with you for the afternoon. 76. Give someone a recording of their favorite music. 77. Email a friend some information about a topic they are especially interested in. 78. Give someone a homemade gift. 79. Write a poem for someone. 80. Bake some cookies for your local fire or police department. 81. Organize a neighborhood cleanup and have a barbecue afterwards. 82. Help a child build a birdhouse or similar project. 83. Check in on an old person, just to see if they’re okay. 84. Ask for the recipe after you eat over at someone’s house. 85. Personally welcome a new employee at work and offer to take them out for lunch. 86. While in a car, ask everyone to buckle up because they are important to you. 87. Let someone else eat the last slice of cake or pizza. 88. Stop and buy a drink from a kid’s lemonade stand. 89. Forgive someone when they apologize. 90. Wave to someone looking for a parking space when you’re about to leave a shopping center. 91. Send a copy of an old photograph to a childhood friend. 92. Leave a pint of your spouse’s favorite flavor of ice cream in the freezer with a bow on it. 93. Do a household chore that is usually done by someone else in the family. 94. Be especially happy for someone when they tell you their good news. 95. Compliment a coworker on their role in a successful project. 96. Give your spouse a spontaneous back rub at the end of the day. 97. Serve someone in your family breakfast in bed. 98. Ask someone if they’ve lost weight. 99. Make a donation to a charity in someone’s honor. 100. Take a child to a ballgame. HAVE A BEAUTIFUL LIFE

Several ibadahs you can do to increase your tranquility

this is a mail that i get from a friend... There follows a list of things that can be done in one minute, by the permission of Allah: 1. You can recite Surah al-Fatihah 3 times. Some scholars said that the reward for reading al-Fatihah is more than 600 hasanahs, so if you read it 3 times you will, by the permission of Allah, gain more than 1800 hasanahs – all of that in one minute. 2. You can recite Surah al-Ikhlaas 20 times. Reciting it once is equivalent to one-third of the Qur’an. If you read it 20 times it is equivalent to reading the Qur’an 7 times. If you read it 20 times in one minute each day, you will have read it 600 times in one month, and 7200 times in one year, which will be equal in reward to reading the Qur’an 2400 times. 3. You can read one page of the Al Qur’an. 4. You can memorize a short sentence of Al Qur’an. 5. You can say Laa ilaaha ill-Allaah wahdahu laa shareeka lah, lahu’l-mulk wa lahu’l-hamd wa huwa ‘ala kulli shay’in qadeer (There is no god except Allah alone with no partner; to Him be dominion and praise, and He is Able to do all things) – 20 times. The reward for saying this is like freeing 8 slaves for the sake of Allah from among the sons of Ismaa’eel. 6. You can say Subhaan Allaahi wa bi hamdihi (Glory and praise be to Allaah) 100 times. Whoever says that in one day will be forgiven for his sins even if they are like the foam of the sea. 7. You can say Subhaan Allaahi wa bi hamdihi Subhaan Allaah il-‘Azeem (Glory and praise be to Allah, glory be to Allah the Almighty) 50 times. These are two phrases which are light on the lips, heavy in the balance and beloved to the Most Merciful, as was narrated by al-Bukhaari and Muslim. 8. The Prophet (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him) said: “When I say ‘Subhaan Allaah, wa’l-hamdu Lillah, wa laa ilaah ill-Allaah, wa Allaahu akbar (Glory be to Allah, praise be to Allah, there is no god except Allaah, and Allaah is Most Great)’, this is more beloved to me than all that the sun rises upon.” (Narrated by Muslim). In one minute, you can say all of these words more than 18 times. These words are the most beloved words to Allah, the best of words, and they weigh heavily in the balance of good deeds, as was narrated in the saheeh ahaadeeth. 9. You can say, Laa hawla wa laa quwwata illa Billaah (there is no strength and no power except with Allah) more than 40 times. This is one of the treasures of Paradise, as was narrated by al-Bukhaari and Muslim. They are a means of putting up with difficulties and of aiming to achieve great things. 10. You can say Laa ilaaha ill-Allaah approximately 50 times. This is the greatest word, for it is the word of Tawheed, the good word, the word that stands firm. If these are the last words of a person, he will enter Paradise, and there are other reports which indicate how great these words are. 11. You can say Subhaan Allaah wa bi hamdih, ‘adada khalqihi, wa ridaa nafsihi, wazinata ‘arshihi, wa midaada kalimaatihi (Glory and praise be to Allaah, as much as the number of His creation, as much as pleases Him, as much as the weight of His Throne and as much as the ink of His words) more than 15 times. This words bring many more times the reward for other forms of tasbeeh and dhikr, as was reported in saheeh ahaadeeth from the Prophet (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him). 12. You can seek the forgiveness of Allah more than 100 times by saying “Astaghfir-Allaah (I seek the forgiveness of Allaah). The virtues of seeking forgiveness are no secret, for it is the means of attaining forgiveness and entering Paradise, and it is the means of being granted a good life, increasing one’s strength, warding off disasters, making things easier, bringing rain and increasing one’s wealth and children. 13. You can say a few brief and concise words in one minute, and Allah may bring about some good through them that you could never imagine. 14. You can send blessings on the Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) 50 times by saying Sall-Allaahu ‘alayhi wa sallam (May Allah bless him and grant him peace). In return Allah will send blessings upon you 500 hundred times because one blessing brings ten like it. 15. You can motivate your heart to give thanks to Allah, to love Him, to fear Him, to put hope in Him, to long for Him, and thus travel through the stages of ‘uboodiyyah (total enslavement to Allaah). You could do this when you are lying on your bed or walking in the street. 16. You can read more than two pages of a useful book that is easy to understand. 17. You can uphold the ties of kinship by calling a relative on the phone. 18. You can raise your hands and recite any du’a you wish from the books of du’a, in one minute. 19. You can say salams to and shake hands with a number of people in one minute. 20. You can forbid an evil action in one minute. 21. You can join something good in one minute. 22. You can offer sincere advice to a brother in one minute. 23. You can console someone who is depressed in one minute. 24. You can remove something harmful from the road in one minute. 25. Making the most of one minute motivates you to make the most of other periods that would otherwise be wasted. Finally, the more sincere you are towards Allah and the more aware you are of Him, the greater will be your reward and the more your hasanaat will increase. Note that most of these actions will not cost you anything; they do not require tahaarah (purity) and they will not tire you out or take much effort. On the contrary, you can do them whilst you are walking, or in your car, or lying down, or standing, or sitting, or waiting for somebody. These actions are also among the greatest means of attaining happiness, expanding the chest (i.e., bringing relief and joy) and removing stress and anxiety. May Allah help us and you to do that which He loves and which pleases Him. May Allah bless our Prophet Muhammad.

Afraid of tomorrow

i'm afraid thinking of what's gonna happen tomorrow.

will i still make it tomorrow? will i still be alive?

i had been skipping prayers for two weeks now..

will i become a better person tomorrow? coping with my unfinished homework??

i have tonnes of items in my to-do-list..but it's not improving cuz i'm here, in front of the lap top...writing some thoughts and conflicts in my mind!

will i be able to reduce my tension level, study and catch up with maths homework and literature critics and sociology revision?

will i be mature enough to write a good essay for general paper?

will i ever be able to overthrow my lust for sleeping..?

sleeping had been ruling my life since form 3!

will i be able to be interested in learning tomorrow, so that i could memorize things easily...THINGS - formal education or informal?;

i''m only good at receiving orders and infos but not digesting them and end up forgetting them..

will i ever be able to be active and float myself, doing some dance trick?

will things get better tomorrow, or will they get worse cuz i'm not doing anything to change the procrastination i'm making a habit of..?

sometimes i think i am of no use

well, most of the times,actually..i really wanna look for my SELF..MY REAL SELF!

not the ones inflicted by my mother, impression and status my ego tells me to keep.

i'm not good at producing anything!

i'm still looking for my TALENT!

what do i possess in this life?

my senior raps and writes awesome lyrics,Ciara dances really well,Bill and other artists write good lyrics..everyone is so good at expressing their emotion and thought and make people understand...

but as for me,i'm unused to that..the thoughts linger in my head and stuck up at my mouth! i am unable to word out my thoughts or emotion. drawing? i am bad at it as well..dancing - i wanna try that some time!!! really wanna do hip hop dancing and parkour!

but now my motive in life is to STUDY TESL!!!

i'm a slow learner, i get bored easily..i like physical things..but physical skills dont get u much pay in your working life afterwards.

what i really want in this life is to create something and become the masterpiece of it..but,judging from how i'm treating my study,i'm procrastinating, and even unprepared, or rather, not preparing myself for study..fuck it!i have more than ample time to complete all my homework! bt i;m sitting in front of lap top, you-tubing this and that. (oh,yes,haven't watched the latest annoying orange,gonna yt it now)...

i'd been spending too much time daydreaming, thinking how i will blog and be famous for making reviews..wanna be like teka-teki in K.A.M.I..imagining myself getting a job that'd allow me to get close to tokio hotel...to Bill Kaulitz, actually...crap! writing an essay is already a PITA for me..giving comments on nature photos are hard enough!! how can i be an English teacher??

a bum like me~

i feel stupid. i feel empty. i feel desperate. i am drenched in the darkness of my ignorance.
i need people. i need people to nedd me
to remember me.
to love me.
to care for me

i know, my family hearts me. but i dont display my emotions with them.

i fill up my stupid time, the emptiness in me by surfing porn.

fuck it! what's wrong with me. i am never happy with what i get. i always want something i dont have.

when my mom gets online, i sign out of the site. my family provides the love that i seek. but i dont appreciate them enough to tell them all about me. to share stories as how people in love does.

i fill up my time reading shonen manga. always full-spirited and know what they want.not letting others affect and stop their dreams. thats how it works. sure, i really feel the excitement, the atmosphere, the non-stop actions but i have no clue where to direct them at for i have no goal in my life.

superficially, i have everything. parents, sisters, brother, friends. best friends. teachers who love me. education. i can d anything i want. but i still feel empty inside. is it really because i constantly need a boyfriend? people to go desperate for me? i still dont know how to think. no kidding.i would just stare at something and not be able to think of the solution of anything. i see things superficially and things just pass through my mind, not stick in there. i feel like a bum.

i jus dont know anymore where to face anymore. for these 13 months i had been living aimlessly,following what my teachers and parents and friends tell me to do. i seem energetic,jolly,fun and enthusiastic and the source of my friends laugh. but when i am alone even for a minute, i lose myself. i feel lonely and dont know what to do, so clueless..i know i'm supposed to be studying but in this situation, i cant think anymore..i feel useless. tht's why i'm writing this. i need to get them out of my head.

Are men selfish parsimonious nonchalant creature?? U be the judge.

Well, you decide, and tell me what you think..